Seven Years

I like it, as a poem, or with melody.


Seven Years
Norah Jones

Spinning, laughing, dancing to
Her favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
Is all alone
Eyes wide open
Always hoping for the sun
And she’ll sing her song to anyone
That comes along
Fragile as a leaf in autumn
Just fallin’ to the ground
Without a sound
Crooked little smile on her face
Tells a tale of grace
That’s all her own
Spinning, laughing, dancing to her favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
And she’s all alone

Screwing up a Date with Destiny

Our youth service ended up almost 8:00pm last night so it too late for me to attend Gencon, but too early to go home. So I went to Tikling anyway and went to an internet shop. I left after an hour, but I still didnt feel like going home just yet. I haven't been to the new Starbucks in SM Taytay so thought I should go check out the place. It was jampacked, with no extra seats available. Besides, the people there were mostly by pairs or in groups, ako lang ang nag-iisa. And I didnt like the lighting. Ang liwanag. Kitang-kitang ako, dyahe. So I left and and went to Chowking in Tikling. I wanted a frap, or hot choco, but there's none so ended up with Nai-cha. After finishing my drink, I still didnt feel like going home. Sabi ko I'll walk my way to Mocha Blends. I like walking at night. Nakakarelax, ang dami mo maiisip. I used to do that when I used to stay in my aunt's house in Guadalupe back in college. From Boni, I would walk to Guadalupe Bridge, the Pasig river under me, the MRT above me and the bright and huge Guadalupe billboards before me. Then in my head a coldplay song would cue, it feels like a movie scene. Yeah, that's a scene in a script I write in my mind.

Back to Taytay, when I was almost in Mocha Blends, I saw a familiar back walking from the parking area going to the coffee shop. A crush. Okay, I don't have a bf and I don't sleep around, so I think it will not make me a bad person if I admit that I have some few crushes.

Ito yung tipo ng crush na, he doesn't know a thing or two about me, but if he sees me, he would know he's seen me because I go to their church, and we've been introduced to each other. I've also experienced speaking more than two words to him, and it was a dreadful experience. Pinagtawanan ako ng kasama ko, para daw akong iiyak sa kaba.

I actually had to stop by somewhere to decide if I really want to go in. Do I really want to? Kaya ko ba? I was asking myself, nakuha ko pang magpulbo. =) Then I thought, there's nothing to lose, and come to think of it, I've been to a few stops that night but something was telling me there was one place I still can go to. And we arrived there almost at the same time, how magical is that? (Okay, nasosobrahan ako sa kakapanood ng movies ni Julia Roberts).

I was able to manage to get my feet walking towards the shop. He was inside, I picked a seat outside. I was trying to act normal. I couldn't confirm if he saw me, but I was thinking he did. And that got me nervous. I took out my phone na lowbatt it has already died down. I pretended I read a text, and I stood up, look around and started walking away.

And that's how our date ended. I didnt even say goodbye to him, poor guy. =)

As I was walking back enjoying that, and laughing at my geekness, sa sarili ko, I imagined what I was wishing would happen. Actually, I think if it happens to anyone, pare-pareho lang kami ng naiisip. We will notice each other, he will think he has seen me before, he'd join me, and we would finish our drinks together.

I have to shrug my shoulder. Those kind of stuff happen in movies. Seeing him that night is good enough. Besides, I still do not know if he is the kind who would want to walk in Edsa beneath the bright lights.

What I Learned from Chris Evans

Growing up watching Dawson's Creek and being a frustrated writer, I am a self-confessed hopeless romantic. In real life, my kilig moments has got to be the ones that happen on TV or movies, the ones that cue a nice background music.

I do not deny wanting to have a special someone I can call my own, but I've always been hopeful, knowing there's nothing to worry, it'll happen in time.

I remember a line Cris Evans said in Fantastic 4 that hit me. "It's just nice to have someone." (And everyone says "aaaahhwww")

Angry is Ugly

I've been pressured with my circumstances lately, it has started to take its toll on me. For the first time in the longest time, I admit, I am a negative person again. The other day, I couldnt hide it. I showed how negative I can be in front of my TL and teammates. It didnt feel good though after that. It felt really bad. It's as though I was trying to be as presentable as can be to my crush, but then that moment, I had green veggies stuck between my braces. And my one shot with him is gone forever. (its just an illustration)

I've been hearing verbal compliments lately na blooming daw ako. Modesty aside, ang sarap pakinggan nun. Nagugulat ako kasi, I didnt feel that I look good. I feel haggard. I feel ugly. Pastor Paul Chase said he used to be an angry person, and he was ugly. Angry makes you ugly. Negativity makes you ugly. Harsh attitude and words are never attractive. di ba? And I pride myself on being a Christian? Gosh...I badly need God talaga. Negative person like me needs help.

I learned something new again. No matter how much a person has, and how good a person looks on the outside, if the inside is rotten, it's like an empty shell.

A tree is identified by its fruit. Make a tree good, and its fruit will be good. Make a tree bad, and its fruit will be bad...For whatever is in your heart determines what you say. A good person produces good words from a good heart and an evil person produces evil words from an evil heart. Matthew 12: 33-35

Waste Another Day

I'm loving the song and the artist.


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