Aaww to the future :)

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One Step Closer

It was Valentines Day a few days back, and I must admit, sa likod ng cool at kalma lang na pa-epek, napapabuntunghininga din ako. Whew! Single pa din ako this year.

Sa kabila ng mga pep talks, uhmm, church sermons na nakatulong sa 'kin, nasira pa din ang mood ko minsang biruin ang lovelife ko. Bwisit na 'yan. Sarap sagutin, pero syempre nginitian ko na lang. :)

Recently, I met someone who made me experience brand new feelings, but something was not right. Mind over heart - I chose to have the best intentions, to impact this person's life in a good way. Napilitan lang ako kaya I would beat myself up everyday with this choice. Kagabi when I went out with friends, tinukso nila ako sa mga single guys and sumakay lang kami like good friends and mature people. But I realized that these guys, are really good guys. They can treat a girl right, and they deserve to be loved and respected. And I thought, you know I can use this to make me feel good, but I sincerely felt that I want them to be happy. It may not be me, but it's okay. I just secretly wish that they find that girl who would take care of them. And I realized, not necessarily in a romantic context, but I care about these friends of mine. I now understand first hand what it means to have the best intentions for someone. :)

Aside from Franco's Seasons, I discovered this other waiting song. 

I have died everyday waiting for you. Ouch. Haha.

TAMA NA. SOBRAAANG CHEEEESY NA! HAHA.

Love is defined by wanting God's best for someone else regardless of what that means to you. 
Love is about "us" as a people, not "you" as a person. Christ exemplified this love when He pushed aside His own personal desires and safety and died on the cross for us. - Jason Illian, Undressed

Doctor, Doctor, I am...lovesick

Nag-absent ako some few weeks back because of my sore throat. So, I had to get checked kasi I needed a med cert. Lumabas ako ng bahay na umaambon at ang sama ng pakiramdam ko. It was one of those bad days at tamad na tamad ka talaga.

I was surprised when I met the doctor. He wasnt wearing the white gown and he doesn't even look like he's 30. Mukha lang siyang gaya ko, nag-absent at kelangan ng med cert. But I remember him being so nice, caring and very decent. And while I was paying at the cashier, the nurse handed him my med cert that he needed to sign, and I overheard them talking about how the nurse was suprised that he goes to VCF pala, and attends small groups...and I remember thinking..."and he's a Christian." And they carried on, for quite a while, talking about this church stuff, hawak pa din ng dok yung med cert ko and I was still waiting for him to sign it. I just waited.

I almost never blog about crushes and boys. Ngayon lang. I got his name and license #, but no, I don't have plans of stalking him. I'm just fascinated...how meeting him changed my mood from bad...to good. I'm just amazed. When I meet the guy for me, that's how I'd like it to feel. It feels right, like the heaven is smiling or something. =) Mushy.

Then one day naman on the same week, I went to Mega Mall. And while I was there, with all these people around me that should make me feel little and insignificant, I felt God's love. I should feel insecure but I felt peace. It's amazing. Na parang, sa gitna nilang lahat, I knew my place and I knew my purpose.

This thing...(cough, cough), love...is unbelievable.

What I Learned from Chris Evans

Growing up watching Dawson's Creek and being a frustrated writer, I am a self-confessed hopeless romantic. In real life, my kilig moments has got to be the ones that happen on TV or movies, the ones that cue a nice background music.

I do not deny wanting to have a special someone I can call my own, but I've always been hopeful, knowing there's nothing to worry, it'll happen in time.

I remember a line Cris Evans said in Fantastic 4 that hit me. "It's just nice to have someone." (And everyone says "aaaahhwww")