Je is always our party planner, organizing some getaway or masterminding a birthday gimmick for one of us. So for her birthday, I thought tama lang na kami naman ang magplan ng something to make her feel special like what she does for her family and friends.
I wanted to throw an "all of your friends are here" party for her, pero dahil amateur at busy din naman kaming lahat, kami-kami na lang muna. Ingat din kami sa pagpaplano. Sanay sa pakulo si ateh, one wrong move mabubuko kami.
That night, she got served. Booyah birthday girl. Hehe.
I've seen Californication until a few of the first episodes in Season 5, but I was practically hiding while watching it. I didn't want to be seen by my family, it's just not for everyone. But I like it for some reason. There's art all over it.
I set aside "writing" for quite a while now. It just requires a lot of work - thinking, walking in the park, staring at the ceiling, staring out the window, talking to self, crying and laughing while talking to self, basically those things that make you look weird. It just wasn't practical.
But here, I've seen that being a writer wasn't at all weird and dorky. It was actually cool. And yes, sexy. It makes me want to write and be a writer.
Here is one of the best scenes. Napa-wow at natigilan ako after this. And maybe I cried? I don't really remember.
I wonder if it's really like this, or if it will be like this for me. That you will meet a person, and then there's this feeling, you'll just know, that this might be the one. It's this good it makes me wish this happens in real life.
Dear Karen,
If you're reading this, it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it. So, good for me. You don't know me very well, but if you get me started I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me. But this... this is the hardest thing I've ever had to write. There is no easy way to say this, so I'll just say it: I met someone. It was an accident, I wasn't looking for it, I wasn't on the make. It was a perfect storm. She said one thing, I said another... Next thing I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation. Now there is this feeling in my gut; she might be the one. She is completely nuts in a way that makes me smile highly neurotic, a great deal of maintenance required. She is you, Karen... That's the good news. The bad is that I don't know how to be with you right now, and that scares the shit out of me. Because if I am not with you right now, I have this feeling we will get lost out there. It's a big bad world full of twist and turns, people have a way of blinking and missing the moment. The moment that could have changed everything... I don't know what's going on with us and I can't tell why you should waste a leap of faith on the likes of me. But damn you smell good like home and you make excellent coffee that has to count for something, right? Call me.
