Friday, July 13, 2007

BATMAN

Last Wed I got late sa work because of the terrible traffic jam. And it worn me down. I got my first discussion log (memo) and I am not eligible for the P2000 bonus at the end of the 4-week product training. But I realized, instead of letting it pull me down, I will use it as a challenge. That will be the first and last time, and I will really do my best in this company.And I guess it goes for everything else; sa manistry, sa pagsusulat ko, sa sarili kong battles. I am not perfect, I lack things, and I am weak. But I will not run away. I will face these things. Not on my own strength, but with God who believes in me. I have let Him down countless times by hating myself and my life and by letting circumstances defeat me. Now, I will fight for Him. I remember tuloy yung isang activity namin with accent trainor Ed. He asked us to answer the question: Who is your favorite superhero. Just for the heck of it, I answered batman. But while I was thinking of reasons why Batman, I thought of saying, as a kid growing up, he was afraid of bats, but he embraced that fear, and even used it as his character. And all are like that. No matter how great we are we are always weak at some thing, or we have a weakness pulling us down. But we can embrace that weakness and be challenged to do better.Today, I have started writing "thank you's" to God. Minimum 3 items a day. I've always been this negative, sad and difficult person. I will fight that by wanting to be positive.