Friday, June 27, 2008

Black and White

Alright. So Enna gave birth to 3 puppies. Si Itim, si Puti at si Pablo. The original plan was to gave them all away for adoption because we can't have any more dogs than Enna and Yogi. But Pablo was a classic case of 'love at first sight', and the rest of us like him na so we are keeping him. The family across the street asked for itim, but when it was time for us to let him go, he was smart enough to come back to us. He was still always around our house kasi he still likes to meme and plays around with Pablo and Puti. Puti on the other hand, is the least on the popularity contest kasi babae siya, at nanganganak ang babaeng aso so nobody wants her.

Okay, they were just puppies, no big deal? No, they had been the cause of 'irita' around the house. They would wrestle around, pee here and poopoo there. And when its feeding time, imagine the craziness in feeding 5 hungry dogs.

I had been cranky the past days and I said if only the 2 puppies will go, maybe things will be better. I love dogs, but we can't keep them all. There were enough askal and gala dogs in the neighborhood so nobody would take them. Kung kukuha man, ang kukunin si Pablo, hindi naman pwede sa 'kin yun. I called PAWs but they wouldnt take them either kasi meron daw crazy condition sa behaviour ng mga dogs dun baka hindi sila magsurvive. I was desperate! Naiisip ko nang iligaw na lang sila and let them be homeless all their lives. Which I can't bear. Pero pag naiinis na ko, gusto ko na lang talaga silang iwan somewhere far.

I prayed to God, sabi ko, "God, wag mo naman hayaang maging ganoong klaseng tao at dog owner ako. Please, sana makahanap ako ng kukuha sa kanila."

So I tried the internet. I texted a lady who wants an askal puppy but she lives in Tagaytay. No can do. I posted my own ad, but for a few days walang pumapatol so I kept on searching. I saw an ad of a dad looking to buy a puppy for his kids, and I texted him saying I have a puppy, for free, askal nga lang. We arrange to meet and he would be taking Puti. I was sooo happy.

Itim was about to be given na lang sa Tito ko (though I had doubts sabi kasi ng nanay ko pag lumaki na ang dog pinapakatay). That same night, someone texted me about the puppy. More happiness. He will take Itim.

I met up with Eric in UP for Puti last week, and yesterday met up with Timothy, a 17 yr old nursing student, for Itim. I had to put efforts in doing these but okay lang. Eric said the kids says thanks to me, and it feel nice knowing puti will be taken cared of by the kids. And Timothy has had a pitbull before and knows about dogs so Itim is in good hands. Sa bahay, walang kaganda-ganda sina Itim at Puti samin but Timothy liked how Itim looked and said kahit askal siya maganda siya.

I feel relieved knowing they will be better taken cared of in another family who can focus on them.

I learned from this experience. Of course, this is a case of an answered prayer. God not only cares about big things but also care about little things like this. I also learned that, if we are desperate and determined to solve something, we can lift it up to God and ask His help but also, do our part. Waiting around didnt bring us potential new owners for them. But researching, posting an ad, and contacting people did. There are few things I desire but up until now are just desires. I realized, if God wills it, I can do it. If I want someting bad enough, I may just make it happen with God's help of course.

God is really to me and teaching me new stuff.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Seek Ye First

Lately, I seem to have lost my peace. Parang disatisfied ako of myself, of what I do, and I was thinking of that something na dapat kong i-aaccomplish. Nandiyan dapat ituloy ko yung practice ko sa comm skills, magstart na ko magsulat, maybe its time to put up a business so makapagstart na din maghulog for a house and lot.

I really had that feeling na I have to accomplish something to prove something. I knew I was being a manpleaser, I confessed it sa Panginoon. Pero may gumugulo pa din talaga sakin. Because of that I kept on searching. I was thinking and praying to God to show me what it is that is bothering me.

One example: kanina nga I was googling, and i do not have one focus. I was googling this, tapos jump dito, jump doon. That shows lack of direction. I do not know what it is that I really want.

Kahapon sinumpong si Tatay ng sakit niya. Being used to it, I was thinking it was one of those once-a-month thing and now this month atleast its over. Surprisingly kanina umulit, and I had a negative reaction towards it. At first I was really mad at God for allowing this to happen, but I couldnt deny that I saw his hand moving, na he may have allowed it to happen, but his protection was still there. While I was alone, I had an impression in my heart. Lately I lost my sense of purpose. I had been distracted but deep in my heart, I was looking for it.

I was humbled, and I realized, what gave me peace.

Its not bad to want to be successful and want a good life. That is God's plan for me, to bless me. But I forgot to seek Him first and His kingdom...because time will come this will all be over and God has prepared a place wherein Tatay is sick no more. And I should live this life looking forward to that.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33 KJV

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Pablo


Yes, he is the new boy in my life! Anak ni Yogi at Enna. The moment I saw him I knew I would like him. Kasi namana niya yung kulay ni Yogi at Enna, na siyempre namana lang din ni Enna kay Yogi (anak ni Yogi si Enna, which makes Pablo his son and grandson, yikes!). I just had this feeling that we have to keep him kasi, I mean, ampon lang namin si Yogi and Enna from another family and another dog, but this darling litle angel, is anak ng 2 naming aso, which makes him our own!


Another reason why I have to keep him: Last year, I gave away Enna's sister Elga to a friend. Elga has been so attached to us na so the moment I had to give her to the new owner, I couldnt stop myself from crying kahit mag-isa lang ako papunta at pauwi. And it took a while for me to recover. Sabi ko hindi ko na uli gagawin yun, to give away a puppie I have been attached to. And Pablo looks so much like Elga. Reincarnation ba?


Okay, oa na. Sorry I can't help it. Pablo really is bundle of joy not only for me but for the family.