He Put the Happy in my Birthday

I am 26 years old! Ngee...im getting the anxious feeling already. You see, once you get over 25, it automatically feels you're 30.

When I started getting letters addressed to me and when kids and inaaanak come by on Christmas for their gifts, I started feeling like an adult. It amazes me how I was able to get to Baguio last summer with a few church girls who are younger than me. I am not a scared girl anymore!

Something inside me though still feels like a 7 yr old kid. Nahihiya pa din ako, naiiyak, natatakot.

My birthday this year is specially challenging. A few days back, I was anxious if there will be a 'happy birthday'. We are kinda in the middle of something at home, and I was hoping a for gift from above- a birthday prince charming. If I look around me, it still is an ordinary day, and the prince charming is stranded.

Given this situation years back, I would have slit my own throat. Kidding. I guess what I mean to say is, I used to be a very negative person, but God came to my rescue and has planted his peace in me. Not everyday is a good day but God is always good.

I'd like to quote Kuya Kevin: If we want to understand how much God loves us, we simply need to look to the cross.

Good and bad things will happen to us in our life. One thing that will never change—Jesus Christ loved us so much that He died for us.

That is how I know God loves me.

I had a blast on my 25th year. Sobrang saya, I could even say life begins at 25.

I got a new job. Met new people. Learned new things. Got kilig-ed. Lots of kilig. Got broken hearted. Have I mentioned that I had a lot of kilig moments? Laughed out loud. Heard the funniest jokes. Cried myself to sleep. Grown deeper with my relationship with the Lord.

To everyone who has been a part of my amazing 25th year, may you be a family member, an old friend, a new one, or someone who's ministered to me without you knowing (Kuya Kevs, PJ, Pastor Paul, Joyce Meyer, etc.), you are all given to me by God. Thank you.

I am excited with what the Lord has in the box for me now that I am 26.

My Bestfriend's Wedding

Caught this movie again on a cable. Its different to me now than the last time I saw it. Dati kala mo the movie just plays with witty characters and clever lines and scenes but I didnt realize how true and how emotional this movie is. Each character, their lines and reaction, are believable and justifiable, because they happen in real life.

I miss writing...

What I do not want

If there's one thing I've learned about myself lately it is that, I may not always be 100% sure with what I want, but I am certain with what I do not want.

I sometimes have a hard time saying yes to the stuff that I like that comes along, because they seem to good to be true. But I do not have a problem repeating "nos" over and over to those I do not like.

I may not always have a way of getting what I want, but you can't force me into something I do not like. I am not that "plastic". I can't always fake "na okay lang".

I like doing the things I am passionate about and I strongly believe in. I give 110% of my everything if I like something. But towards the things I do not have a heart for, do not expect a good job from me. Or atleast a happy me. I don't mind hardwork as long as I like what I do and I am happy. It is important to me that I am at peace with what I am doing.

I like my faith, I like my dogs, I like writing, I like good movies, I like music, I like sleeping.

There was another thing I knew I wanted but wasnt really sure then, but now, I realized, it was sad to have let it go because it could have been everything I have always wanted.

It is my prayer, na wag ako magsettle sa isang bagay because I have to, or because its the only option available and that I really do not have a choice.

Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.

The Father's Love Letter

My Child,

Not only can I hear you, but I know everything about you. (Psalm139:1) I know when you sit down and when you rise up. (Psalm 139:2) I am familiar with all your ways. (Psalm 139:3) Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. (Matthew 10:29-31) For you were made in my image. (Genesis 1:27) In me, you live and move and have your being. (Acts 17:27-28) For you are my offspring. (Acts 17:28) I knew you even before you were conceived. (Jeremiah 1:4-5) I chose you, when I planned creation. (Ephesians 1:11-12)

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. (Psalm 139:15-16) I determined the exact time of your birth, and where you would live. (Acts 17:26) You are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14) I knit you together in your mother's womb. (Psalm 13:13) And brought you forth on the day you were born. (Psalm 71:6) I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. (John 8:41, 42, 44) I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. (1 John 4:16) And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. (1John 3:1) Simply because you are my child, and I am your Father. (1 John 3:1) I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. (Matthew 7:11) For I am the perfect Father. (Matthew 5:48)

Every good gift that you receive, comes from my hand. (James 1:17) For I am your provider, and I meet all your needs. (Matthew 6:31-33) My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. (Jeremiah 29:11) Because I love you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3) My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. (Psalm 139:17-18) And I rejoice over you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17) I will never stop doing good to you. (Jeremiah 32:40) For you are my treasured possession. (Exodus 19:5) I desire to establish you with all my heart, and all my soul. (Jeremiah 32:41)

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. (Jeremiah 33:3) If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. (Deuteronomy 4:29) Delight in me, and I will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4) For it is I, who gave you those desires. (Philippians 2:13) I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. (Ephesians 3:20-21) For I am your greatest encourager. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17) And nothing will ever separate you from My love again. (Romans 8:39-39) I have always been your Father, and will always be your Father. (Ephesians 3:14-15)1

Adapted from http://www.fathersloveletter.com/

Bad prices, Good God

Isang tricycle at jeep lang ang layo ng pinapasukan ko sa bahay namin. The jeepney fare was P7.50 and the fx fare was P10. The difference didnt use to matter, but now it does. P8 na ang minimum sa jeep at P15 na ang kinukuha ng mga fx drivers. That is P7 difference! Sa jeep na lang talaga ko sasakay.

Sabi ng ate ko ang luwag daw ng kalsada ngayon kasi people wouldnt take their cars on the road that much kasi nga ang mahal ng gas. Ang bigas $38 to $40! Grabe, ako na lang ang hindi tumataas.

Nakakabago talaga siya ng lifestyle for most. But I choose to believe, God is always good no matter how bad the prices now are.