Transform me

Kakapagod magtake ng calls 10 hrs a day. Last caller ko pa Indian call center agent...I lost my temper. Well hindi na bago yun. I had this reputation na galit ako sa Indian. Hindi ako racist. Yoko lang talaga nakakakuha ng caller ng call center agent din tapos Indian. Panira ng AHT (average handling time). Sulit call yang mga yan. We can assist them with 3 members per call, sasagarin talaga nila. Minsan hihirit pa ng pang-apat o panglima. And they would ask everything. Okay lang kung madali sila intindihin, kaso hindi. Di mo na nga maintindihan, ang bilis pang magsalita, pabulong naman ang boses. So you would keep on asking them to repeat what they said. At ganun din naman sila. Hindi rin sila madaling makaintindi. Papaulitin ka din. Paulit ulit talaga. Tinanong na niya at nasagot mo na, maya-maya itatanong uli. Rewind ito?

Yung katabi kong si Apol tells me a funny story from the movie Transformers. I havent seen it pero the way she tells it tawang-tawa na ko. There was a guy daw sa gitna ng gera who called up 911 but his call got transferred sa Indian rep. Natataranta na siyang nanghihingi ng backup, parang wala lang sa call center na busy picking his nose. Nagagalit na yung caller, sabi ng rep "that attitude won't speed up the process." They can't seem to get through each other, maya-maya nag-upsell na lang 'tong si call center rep. =) Nasa gitna siya ng gera bebentahan pa siya.

Sabi ko nga, I have nothing against Indians. It just so happens, kayang-kaya nila akong inisin, lumalabas tuloy ang totoo kong kulay. As much as I want to be sweet and nice, nasasagad talaga pasensiya ko at nagtatransform ako into a green monster. I do not like that. Totoo. It's not attractive. I really want to work it out. I want to be gentle and patient. I want to be easy to be with. I want to live a changed life kasi, if not, how different am I sa ibang hindi alam kung ano ang "fruit of the spirit".

Its not easy pero I will be more conscious and watch myself, my words and my eyebrows. =)

not much of a good fight

Nanalo si Manny Pacquiao kahapon against Juan Marco Marquez, split decision. My opinion as a non-boxing expert, I felt he could have won a "swabe" victory had he done better on the rounds in the middle. Napatumba niya nung third round, but he failed to follow through on the next rounds, nakabawi tuloy. Nung ilang rounds na lang ang naiiwan, and he hasnt knocked out the opponent yet, dun siya nagmadali. You could see he wanted to knock out Marquez. But it was a struggle, hes got a cut sa mata niya, and so was Marquez. And I was scolding him in front of television "Yan, kasalanan mo yan, ang dami mong sinayang na rounds, ngayon ka naghahabol."

I am confident he could have done better than that. He's dicipline, focus, passionate and determined. Magandang tularan.

I want to be like that. I cant get into boxing but I am inside the ring too.

"Fo we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand." Ephesians 6: 12-13.

The enemy is working against our youth ministry sa church. Time na para mag-counter attack.

I got to fight a good fight. I am a soldier. I am confident with my relationship with my Father, pero I felt kulang pa. I havent scored much point yet.

Thanks to Motorola phone tools

It's 2:45 am. Pumasok ako for rest day OT 3 hrs. Coming home I had my phone loaded para maka-internet. I heard about people using their cellphones to browse the net. Pero using you cellphone as a modem, sa laptop or PC, like wat I am doing right now? Elib na elib talaga ko. =) Pinagtawanan ako once sa work kasi I use ctl alt del in locking my PC. Old school daw. Siguro nga. Sanay ako magpunta sa computer shop or magdial up para mag-internet, kaya getting connected to net using my cp is amaaazing to me...galing!

THE TRICKLE-DOWN THEORY OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
-Joyce Meyer, from her book Beauty for Ashes

Jesus loves me, this I know.He loves me unconditionally.
THEREFORE: His love for me is based on who He is.
THEREFORE: I have not earned His love, nor can I earn His love.
THEREFORE: I cannot be separated from His love.When I obey Him, He will bless me.When I disobey Him, there will be consequences for my behavior.He may not like my behavior, but he always loves me.
THEREFORE: Since I have experienced God's love, I know I am lovable.
THEREFORE, since I know that God loves me, I am able to believe that there are people who could love me, too.
THEREFORE, I am able to trust people who genuinely love me.
THEREFORE, I am able to accept the love that those people give to me.
THEREFORE, since my most basic need for love and sense of self-worth have been met by God, I don't need to be "fixed" by other people.
THEREFORE, although I have needs that I look to other people to meet, I believe those needs are balanced and God-given (i.e., companionship, affection, fun). I try to be honest in assessing those needs and in asking for what I need.
THEREFORE, I expect other people to be honest with me. I can handle criticism or confrontation if it is done with love.
THEREFORE, since I know that I am God's special and unique creation, I know that the love I have to give is valuable.
THEREFORE, I don't feel that I have to "perform" for other people. They will either love me for who I am or they won't. It is important for me to be loved for who I am.
THEREFORE, I am able to get my mind off of what others are thinking ABOUT ME and focus on other people and THEIR NEEDS.
THEREFORE, I am able to sustain a healthy, loving, lasting relationship.

PICTORIAL

I recently got my a razr phone. Kahit laos na, it still is my dream phone. I had my pictures taken and I had fun with it. Here are the samples.